C is for Chill S is for Space Pt.2

Well I was going to make this into a series but it turns out that it wasn’t even close to that!  I’m going to do three parts.  As a matter of fact, I ended it last night.   This only lasted for a week  .. a WHOLE WEEK.  I mean who does that?  Has my life really come to this?  Or maybe men aren’t respectful any more?  Yeah that’s it! Well, let me skip to Tuesday.

So, I decided that I wanted to go to church on Wednesday and we’re going back and forth and I told him. “Hey you know what let’s meet this evening and grab a bite to eat  after my spinning class”. Dude proceeds to tell me something sexually explicit. Y’all know what I mean. I chuckle and was like.  “Yeah okay but for real let’s meet up”!  He was like. “Okay, where”?  So we agree on destination and I am thinking okay maybe this is going to be cool.  Maybe he’s a nice guy.

So I’m tortured through spinning class but I worked up an appetite. Okay, so I call him, no answer.  All right cool, so I texted him too and told him that I was trying to get in touch with him. No response. Ookayyyy.  That’s cool also.   So around 8:20 I whip my car around and I stop and get me something to eat and I go home so I can catch American Horror Story. Let’s pause because I know some of y’all have some questions.

Did I call or text him again? Nope.

Did I go to the restaurant to meet him? Nope, something told me to stay in the gym parking lot until almost 8:30 then I decided to leave.

Let’s move on.

All right, so, I get home strip down and lay in my bed and eat my food.  I don’t get a phone call or a text from him until and hour later.  Yeah that’s right, this fool sends me a text saying that he’s sorry and on his way.  I look at the phone and I said.

“On the way where, I’m at home”!

“Well, I’m getting gas right now”.

“Okay good for you but I’m not meeting you I’m in the bed”.

“Well my sister had my car”.

Skirtt! Hold up!  His sister? He told me he lived with his uncle and aunt.

“Okay, you said you live with your uncle and aunt”?

“Yeah and my cousin had to use my car”?

Hold it, hold it, hold it! (In my NeNe voice)  Cousin, sister? Oh okay I see where this is going.

“Can I come over to see you”?

“Naw, you can’t I’m in bed and I’m not going to wake my mother up for you. But hold up, I thought you lived with your aunt and uncle”?

“Yes I do, I live with them and sister, cousin, you know 1st cousin”?

I burst out laughing because dude sound ridiculous.  And I noticed that he’s not man enough to pick up the phone and talk to me.  I’m trying to watch the show and he’s interrupting it! Dang it!

“Well whatever why didn’t you just pick up the phone and call me”. (hint-hint) If you don’t communicate with me then obviously you’re not interested or you’re hiding something”.

Crickets. No text for about ten minutes.

“Well I thought that we could still meet up that’s why”.

Ugh.. boy..bye!

“How can I make it up to you”? He texted me back.

“You like me right, then figure it out”.

“Ok I’ll take you to restaurant, we eat, I kiss you the whole time WALLAH”!

GROSS!  Naw Playa, it aint gonna work out that way!

“LOL well, I’m going to church tomorrow so how about you join me”?

“I will join you but will we eat dinner together afterwards”?

I didn’t text him until my show was over.

“If the spirit allows me to then we will”.

“Ok will pray for you”.

HAHAHA. You’re manipulating prayers won’t work on me!

“The service starts at 7 I’ll send you the info good night”.

“Good night angel”.

I looked at the text roll my eyes and proceed to lurk on Instagram for a while before going to bed.

Stay tuned for part three!






Twitter fingers demands a what?

On today’s Comedy in the White House.. a Comedic Prospective in Politics.

Word on the street Trump is demanding an apology from ESPN that my new best friend Jemele Hill tweeted out last week. “Donald Trump is a white supremacist who has largely surrounded himself with other white supremacists”.

When I saw the tweet I laughed. I laughed my behind off because the tweet was accurate. I mean the saying is true in this case, “Birds of a feather flock together” . I mean look at the people Trump has been surrounding himself around! He was probably raised to think that way about people of color, women and everything!

So, the Trumphive ( hahaha sorry Bey stans) was upset and was like .”She’s sooo disrespectful”! “She needs to be fired”! “Fire that nigglet”! “Death to anyone who speaks ill of the best President since Ronald Reagan”! One tweet towards her even said “Blacks for Trump”!

Excuse me while I go vomit.

The only African -American’s that supports Trump are Diamond and Silk, Ben Carson, Steve Harvey and that preacher that lied about being a Nupe. Please don’t get upset that I said Steve Harvey; it’s too late to take back what he did. What about Kayne West you say?  Leave Kayne out of it. Ya’ll know Kanye be tripping!

Guess who tweets back? You guessed it right Trump.  He said “ESPN is paying a really big price for its politics (and bad programming), “People are dumping it in RECORD numbers. Apologize for untruth!”

The untruth? Bad grammar much Mr. President?

So EPSN was like. “Okay uh check this out white house and Mr. President. We addressed the issue with J. Hill she recognized what she said was inappropriate and it’s all good now”!

Trump and his hive was not happy at all! They were like ” No she needs to be fired”!  “See that’s black privilege itself”! “If the statement was towards Obama, then there would be smoke in they city”!   ESPN was like. “Naw we’re not firing her; we told you we spoke to her chill out. Technically it was her opinion anyway…look just squash it okay”!

Trump isn’t letting up he wants an apology! You know how spoiled rich people are. When they say or do something wrong they get a slap on the wrist!  Oh but if it’s someone else…sound the alarm.  Apologize to me because I’m important. What I said didn’t mean any harm. I didn’t know any better.  Apologize now or I’m going to throw a fit!

The difference between President Obama and Trump is that the comments made towards President Obama were racist.  Calling someone a monkey.  Putting a noose around his neck that’s wrong! Asking for his birth certificate because he’s bi racial is wrong!  People want to dish it but they can’t take it. You say all these terrible things about people but when it’s your turn you act like a victim!  PUH LESASE!

Real talk Trump is going to be waiting for this apology. He mind as well just move on to the next tweet because it aint happening!  There are way too many things going on in this world for him to be worried about ESPN.

Oh and the Trump hive aren’t bees they are more like Wasp. See no one likes Wasp! Just like that joke where they say Black people are like Monday’s. No one likes Mondays. Well, no one likes Wasp!

This is going to be the longest four years of my life.




C is for Chill , S is for Space

Okay, so have you ever met someone and you felt like you need space? Like you just met them and they already doing too much? Well that happened to me.  I was at the gym minding my own business because I am trying to get my body snatched! Moving on, I see a guy get on the bike next to me. I don’t think anything of it and I continue to work out. I like to people watch so I’m looking around and he opens his mouth to speak to me.  We talk back and forth it turns out he’s from Nigeria and he’s been in Texas for nine months.  We converse and he asks if he can have my phone number.  Now it’s all good because he seemed like a cool guy. I’m thinking I have a new gym buddy, he has a nice body so maybe he could give me some tips.   As soon as we exchanged numbers, this negro said.

“Can I kiss you”? And he tries to lean in. So I backed up and said.

“What you doing”!  I glared at him thinking . “He’s out of his mind”! He says.

“I am sorry”.

“Uh-Huh okay”! I waved him off and end the conversation. I get in my car and speed off.

Fast forward to later on that night.  We’re texting back and forth and everything is cool he apologizes and I accept his apology.

Okay so let’s skip to last night.

So after working out we go outside and he’s just start talking about how much he likes me and all this other stuff. And I began to feel over whelmed. It hasn’t been a month! We haven’t been on our first date! How do you like me bruh-bruh and we just met! ( In my Kanye West voice)  So, I get home and guess what happened.  He calls me and we talked for a little bit. He tried to facetime  me and I wasn’t having it. I was trying to go to sleep so I could at least try to make it to work on time.  In the back of my mind; I felt as if something fishy was going on. He only been in Houston for nine months and he’s saying all these things when he met me.   I needed some SPACE! I prayed about it and I went to sleep.

So as I type this he’s texting me right now! Saying things like “You have this spark that burns and radiates on the outside. Just keep the fire burning”.

Skirrt! STOP! Hold the phone sir!  CHILL!

I had to text him.

Hey check this out, you’re doing too much. You don’t have to say all those things to try to impress me because right now I am far from that. (I had to break-it-down to him.)  Listen I am not hard to please.  Like any woman I like compliments and flattery. I like a guy that’s chill because I have a big personality and lots of energy. I need someone to balance me out. So my guy (in my Brooklyn voice) please chill! Let’s take it slow.  (This is what I texted)

Long story short, I’m meeting ole dude next week. (sigh).  I have a list of questions I have for him in case he’s trying to pull a quick one one me.  Here’s  a message to all men out there that are trying to pursue or court a woman; please do not scare her off. Some women love the dramatic flattery but there are ones like me that do not. Just be yourself.  hmmkay? hmmkay!




Hard to say goodbye

I rarely speak about death because like other people; it’s an touchy subject for me.   Today I received news that one of my friends from work passed away due to illness. For some reason that overwhelmed me because yesterday  marked the third month of my grandmother’s passing.  I had no idea it had been that long. Seriously, I think everything happened so fast when my grandmother passed that I didn’t  get to mourn her.

Now, that I found out about my friend, I couldn’t take it anymore I cried so hard. I was just so sad.  I know when people pass away you say about how good of that person was and I can vouch and say she was a good person. She has been through so much with dealing with breast cancer and other personal issues. She continued to stay positive and believe that God had blessed her and still continued to do so. Now if that’s not faith  then I didn’t know what it was.

My grandmother was the same way! She was a praying woman. She was faithful and she put her trust in God no matter what!  So, when I find out about her passing, I felt selfishness come over me. I believe that God is a healer and he is our doctor. So, why is that these people aren’t healed? Why do they have to suffer? Why is that people who trust in God have to deal with these things?  I still don’t understand it.

I hear people say I’m just glad he/she doesn’t have to suffer anymore.  When I think about it, I know it’s truth. I know that both of those beautiful women are in a better place. They won’t have to suffer any longer. They are okay now. It doesn’t still take the hurt away.



My take on Roots reboot so far Series 1 and 2

When I found out that they were re-making Roots I had to say I was disappointed at first. I was wondering why would they remake this series thirty-nine years later! I mean have we took a step back into our history?  As if African-Americans haven’ t been through so much, we are finally trying to move past this and move forward! It’s time that we leave these slave movies, shows, and documentaries in the past and think about the future. I told myself I wasn’t going to watch it. I turned from the commercials because I thought it was ridiculous.

It wasn’t  until Monday night after binge watching Love and Hip Hop Atlanta (I can’t help it I think the show is hilarious!) I needed something that was going to bring my IQ up a few notches.  So, I took the chance to just give this series a try. I mean why not? I didn’t really watch the 1977 series of Roots. I tried my best when they were playing on BET but I couldn’t make myself watch it, maybe it was too old school. I wasn’t too sure.   So, i just turned to the History channel to see what it was all about.

By the end of the second series a swarm of emotions came over me. I was happy, sad, angry and just down right mad. I enjoyed everything about this series so far and I’m going to tell you why.

First off if you don’t know what Roots is  I think you should do your research. To make a long story short; Roots is based on Alex Haley’s  New York Times best seller Roots : The Saga of an American family.  The novel  was written based in the 18th century where a young African named Kunta Kinte is captured and sold into slavery in America. It explains his life and his descendants afterwards.  I haven’t read the book just yet but I plan on reading it this summer.

What I like about this series is that it’s a much better updated version of old older series. I have to remember that back then things weren’t as harsh as it is now. Sure, the message was the same but this is much better. I get to see what it was like back then and how everything happened. How our ancestors were brought into this country. It’s a reality check and how things went down.  I love the actors and actresses portrayal of what it must have been like back then.

This series is an eye opener and I would recommend it for any history class or African American study class to watch to really get a small glimpse of what really happened. I think the problem is with some people is they don’t like the fact the maybe we do have too many shows and movies about slavery. We get upset but I’ve never heard any other culture say hey I’m sick of hearing about this part of out history. Or please let’s not talk about it!

Well, I come to the conclusion that we do need to know our history. We need to know about what happened to our ancestors and how they were treated. We need to learn how to stick together as one. Our people have been through too much for us not to just forget it. We need to remember!  Until my next blog.



When you know it’s time for a change…

So this week has been the slowest week for me! To make the long story short,  Monday morning I woke up and I didn’t feel like going to work. I just didn’t feel like it! I didn’t want to be around anybody I didn’t want to see them! I didn’t want to talk to them. I didn’t want to answer the phone, I just wanted peace. I wanted some “me” time. I wanted to stay home and just think about anything but my job!  I still went in though.

The weather was bad too but for some reason traffic wasn’t all that bad.  I got to work in no time.  I clocked in and sat at my desk and logged on my computer and the first thing I saw was two doctors had sent me cancelling their clinic. The first one was from a doctor and she was sick. Then another doctor emailed me this bogus email about how he forgot he had an important “doctors appointment” that he forgot about and to cancel his clinic.

So, this dude forgot he had an appointment? WHO THE HECK FORGETS THEY HAVE AN IMPORTANT DOCTORS APPOINTMENT? I mean damn really? So, I called all the patients and I left messages and rescheduled the ones that answered. After the last call I looked outside and it was dreary and raining. I thought to myself “I don’t want to be here, I want to go home”.  That’s exactly what I did.

I talked to my team leader and told him I wasn’t feeling well by noon I was out of there! I speed out the parking lot and drove to Starbucks to get me a black mango tea, I went to Buckees to get me and snack and I brought myself lunch. I got home stripped out my uniform and start working on my teachers certification.   I was at peace no one was around me bothering me or asking me stupid ass questions about how to send a damn fax . (I work with residents)  Right then I knew what my ah-ha moment was for 2016.  Never give up.

I stopped doing my certification and it got me no where. I knew that once I started it back up, that’s what I was supposed to be doing.  when it’s time for you to leave you know it’s time when you leave work early or when it’s hard for you to get ready for your job. All you can do is continue to press on and do what you’re doing in order to take the next step in life. That’s exactly what I’m going to do.  Until next time!





It’s all in the face! Day 19 and 20


If anyone knows me they know that I show my emotions with my face. These last two days were just as challenging as it was the first day. I know that I had to really take a load off and just think on these two days. I know that in one of my earlier post I wrote about how I express myself to a co-worker, sadly I had to do it again. I had to let them know!

Now, there’s a difference between cursing people out and just telling it like it is. Once again, that little voice was telling me “Keep calm, just be firm and please don’t act a fool”!  So, to make this long story short, this particular person was in my bubble and I politely asked her to step out of me bubble and she got upset. She had a nasty attitude and I felt blood boil. My face grew hot and I told her how she was not my boss nor did she write my checks.

Do you see Mrs. Leakes is making? That’s what I looked like when she started to run her mouth as if she was my boss.  Luckily,  someone saw the way this person was treating me and told her supervisor. When I was approached about it I told her everything.

This is a new year for Charmaine Raquel Hudson. I REFUSE to let someone talk or treat me as if I am less than! Just because people may think the job I have isn’t like theirs and I don’t have “Dr.” in front of my name doesn’t mean you’re better than me.

In my eyes you should be blessed that you have that title.  (this person was a medical student in her fourth year) I respect you so please respect me and we’ll be fine! Do I regret what I said?  -No-. Did I apologize? -No, because she didn’t apologize for the way she treated me-.  Do I care if she did? -No-.

I figured the reason why she acted that way towards me because she was having a bad day. You never know what someone is going through. When I saw her the next day,  I said Hello and moved on. That’s all I can do. I will not allow people to stress me out or ruin my day. I’m too cute for that!

Positive note:  Never let anyone disrespect you. If they do… proceed with caution!